03.25.07
Another Sunday
I had every intention of doing something today, but alas, it’s another peaceful Sunday so I just hung around the house.
02.27.07
Last Night in Tokyo
Awww, is it over already? All I have left to do is pack and sleep. How sad!!
Well, the good news is I took nearly 200 pictures. The bad news is, I’m going to make everyone I know look at them. Hahahahahahaha…
I love the energy in Tokyo, I will surely miss it.
But no worries, I’m already manifesting my next trip, well actually, the next five trips because I really like Tokyo and it hasn’t seen the last of me yet.
02.14.07
Valentines is for Love
I really didn’t give much thought at all to Valentine’s Day today, or any Valentine’s Day in nearly a decade for that matter, but then, while driving home from the law office, I thought of something I discussed with a friend last night - the love of my life.Â
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For YEARS, I have gone around saying that my college boyfriend was the love of my life. The LOVE OF MY ENTIRE LIFE. Well, I met him when I was 20, so that’s it? 8 months of happy love in my life is all I get? I don’t get anymore super, sweep-me-off-my-feet, magical love - ever? There’s only one shot and I blew my payload in between thesis papers and using my fake ID to get into bars??
Well shit, that can’t be right!? If it were, I’d be stuck in a bad episode of the Twilight Zone and my love life would be the punchline!!
But it is right because I have been saying it, believing it, and living it that way since I met him… 10 freaking long years ago! I created it that way whether I meant to or not.
So here I face a dilemna. I truly considered him the love of my life and I don’t want to change that memory, so I devised a solution so that I could STOP condemning myself to mediocre love or no love at all.
For who I was as a young adult, he was the love of HER life. But for who I am now, I am ready to meet the love of my life.Â
This sounds like a pretty good solution to me because I get to hold onto the memory of loving him and what our relationship meant without letting those feelings interfere with a new love that may come into my life. While I have no active manifesting for a new love right now, it never hurts to shift beliefs around for future manifesting.
Happy Valentine’s Day!
How fitting that I’d come to this realization today, on Valentine’s Day.
12.17.06
The Reality of Reality
I was just reading a blog of someone who had many archived posts about a demi-celebrity that they adored. They went to his concerts, bought his cds, etc… but then, they met. The blogger said they felt the celebrity was fake and it totally killed their “fandom” for the person altogether.ÂÂ
The interesting thing is, this happens a lot, and not only with celebrities. A lot of times we create a fantasy version of someone we know in our head. It doesn’t matter how they actually are, we only see what we want to see. Blah, blah, we’ve all heard this before, but really, it’s the reality of reality.ÂÂ
If I was my normal self everywhere I went, people would think me more grumpy than I may appear in my work. I put on a smile at my part-time job and leave my worries at home. I have a different way of acting around fancy people like diplomats (and yes, strangely, I know some diplomats) versus my friends of 15 years who have seen me lip-sing with a beach towel to Poison (it was a very long time ago & yes, there were cut off jean shorts involved).
Now of course, it’s disappointing to adore some celebrity then meet them and feel like they were snubbing you or simply didn’t care. But the reality is, they are just people like you and me. They get grumpy. They get tired of putting on a smiley face. They get sick, they get in arguments, and they have doubts and fears too. Perhaps I’m advocating to give celebrities a break - or perhaps I’m really saying, “give yourself a break.”
We idolize others because we “see” something in them that we want to achieve ourselves. We see in them what we feel we lack. And whether it’s the world’s biggest celebrity or the 7-11 clerk down the street, when we finally see the reality of the reality of that person, it can have devestating consequences if we’ve idolized them in a fanciful manner (because that person probably hasn’t changed, your perception has changed and not for the better).
It’s good to have mentors, it’s good to believe in others, and it’s also good to remember that every single person of the some seven billion on the planet are all facing the same fate. We all have wants, we all have fears, and one day, we’re going to lose it all when we die anyway. Ha! I’m not trying to be morbid, I’m trying to be real.
The reality of my reality is that I want to see people as people and not whichever idealistic fantasy my mind might try to create about them whether I’ve never met them or I’ve met them a thousand times.ÂÂ
Hmmm… so there’s my late night rambling about that. I have to go to bed now because my laptop is burning through my covers and I feel like I’m on fire.  (@.@)   Strike that. I feel happy, healthy, and at the perfect temperature for bed. I am also open to receive ~ wealth, if you please. =D
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11.11.06
Manifesting Abundance
Abundance (noun) is defined as:
| 1. | an extremely plentiful or oversufficient quantity or supply: an abundance of grain. |
| 2. | overflowing fullness: abundance of the heart. |
| 3. | affluence; wealth: the enjoyment of abundance |
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I manifest an extremely plentiful supply of motivation for saving money to go to Japan.
I manifest abundance in my financial life.
I manifest wealth and abundance in my emotional life.
I am open to receive abundance!
Now you try…
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11.06.06
Instant Oatmeal ~ er Gratification
I happen to love Maple & Brown Sugar instant oatmeal. I love the sweet taste, how it’s warm on a cold day, and how it fills me up - but what I love the most is how fast it is. It’s instant!
If it weren’t for the microwave revolution, I would surely starve. I don’t have any interest in food. I eat when I’m hungry and other than that, I don’t want to think about food. [Chocolate is not a food in my mind, it is a basic necessity and I think about it often] Therefore, I have no interest in cooking or grocery shopping. I’m that person speedwalking through the grocery aisles snatching things off shelves and putting them in my basket, cause i’m so streamlined that I don’t even need a cart.
I have a point, I promise.ÂÂ
Instant gratification is a prominent energy in American culture these days and wouldn’t you know it, I just realized that sometimes things can take their time to develop and be just as gratifying. While I have understood the concept all along, it just really hit me this week.
If I take time to learn five new Japanese words a day, I’ll expand my vocabularly by 1825 words a year. Or if I save $100 a week, I’ll have $5200 in a year to go on a vacation, or buy something cool, like some plasma TVs and a closet full of fancy designer shoes.
Yes, yes, I know - this is obvious. 1 + 1 = 2. I get it. But, what I didn’t realize was how important it is to embrace both instant gratification and delayed (or for a more positive word) developed gratification. I have always leaned toward the “gimme now” side of manifesting and wanting, so I’m going to try and balance manifesting (and my life) to be more of a mix of both instant and developed gratification.
The reason why this is important is because we tend to get disappointed if we don’t get something we want in the time frame we want it. So if you want something immediately, it’s likely you’ll be disappointed when it doesn’t happen three seconds later. But if you allow yourself to accept both sides of the dichotomy, it can open the energy up more.
Dichotomies are a whole other article, which I’ll get into later, but think of it this way - if you accept both sides of the coin, you’ll be open 100% to receiving what you want because you’ve accepted it to come in either fast or slow. But if you stare at one side of the coin all the time, you’re only accepting 50% of the coin.
Make sense?ÂÂ
Now, I’m off for some oatmeal. (^-^)/
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